The white world wonder why we are all so angry. Wouldn't they be too if they had their culture kept from them most of their lives. They would go around in their lives wondering who they were & where they had come from.
I can relate to some of this due to my family not raising us with our culture & trying to raise us as white. I was so angry for many years about this. Then one day I got up, started researching & then I found out why: To protect us from the whites who so many times treated we Indian people far worse than Africans who had been snatched from their homelands & made slaves in American.
I then had compassion for those I had been so angry about for keeping us from our culture. Still, I wish my elders would have been honest from the beginning & shared our culture with us, let us decide for ourselves if we wanted to live in this white world we were deceived by for so long.
I forgave them for what they did, but still I feel cheated by not getting to learn more about my peoples at a young age. Now as someone older I am now getting to know more about my peoples culture, our ancient stories & some of the languages.
Not one word was ever spoken in our native tongue because frankly, no one had spoken it since they were driven off our homelands in the 1800's. My ancestors had been so scared for their lives that they kept our heritage from us until my grandmother's time. Even then, she had so few things to tell us since she never knew our language. All she knew was from her great-grandmother who lived to be almost 110.
I feel cheated of my heritage even though it was to protect us from harm by the white people who despised native peoples. One thing that has happened now that I know where I came from is that I have peace in my spirit now that I can practice my beliefs in the ancient ways, teach my younger child who wants to be a part of his heritage. The other children have no desire to be a part of who we really are. They have decided to live as whites. This makes me sad. You cannot force someone though to live something they do not believe. That would a great wrong. I am thankful to the Creator for the one child who is proud to be First Nation. Hoa!